Keeps on going with, or without you

2008-10-22T11:02:00.017+08:00

I admit defeat.

this blog is officially dead.

2008-10-21T11:24:00.008+08:00

im in school now and im not feeling so good. im down with flu . what a month for me. i went to east coast village to eat with fikri ystd and we ate alot.. im sorry and i guess my emotions are running wilder now. im sorry fikri. im taking my shirt after sch cos i sent for alteration ystd. then im gonna buy burger ramly cos they are selling that, near to the shop that i alter my shirt and skirt. im off now. lesson's over.

timecheck: 3.36pm

2nd post for the day. we ended our lesson at 11.15pm like tt. me daya aini n shefah went to LJS at east pt for our lunch. half way, daya gtg cos she have to sit for her O levels xams at 2.30pm. me and the other 2 went to tampines mall and went shopping. in the end i bought myself a bag from BHG. school bag cum jalan2 bag. ok lah. cheap. then, we encounter many2 weird and mental people. aini's fault. she attract this sort of ppl. first was in the bus 31 when a mental little boy suddenly held her hand. then, kat 500+ she and shefah sat bside this mental girl also.. and tt gal was yearning for aini =p. and lastly..at kedai specs this pakcik panggil2 and he said "jambu seh jambu seh". it was funny when sharifah imitate tt. and he mintak number.. masyaAllah.. it was super funny... now im gonna take my baju from my alteration shop. ive been using many2 tissue to wipe my flu. and i hope i can get to meet fikri later. AMIN.

listen to this song cos it means so much in a relationship. Im not getting any better. fikri told me to rest @ hm and not meet him but who cares.. i still want to meet him.. Hehhhee. aghhh. my nose it so itchy!

2008-10-20T16:15:00.004+08:00

ystd, went out with fyk. we went many places. rent dvd and we watch it together. yah, just e 2 of us. tali pocong perawan & the hottie and the nottie. watched both. and then, we went to eat @ secret recipe, marina sq's outlet. it was supposed to be my treat. i ordered fish n chips and he ordered chicken smtg smtg, i cnt rmmbr. den his food wasnt appetizing to him. so i offered if he wanted to xchange dish with me. he took my fish n chips =(. eating his dish, makes me want to vomit. itu pasal tk habes. but takpe lah. let him eat the nice one. last2, fyk yg byr for the meal. thanks sayang. kwang3. =). then we went to watsons when i saw nadia, kwn keje lama. we talk2, den fik paid for my hair wax too. =(. thanks again sayang. we went to kallang to play arcade. spend 7 bucks in total. i told si fyk nie to keep my remaining 7 bucks but i think he terbawak balek and today i got no sch money. as in,no loose cash. so the troublesome thing is have to withdraw. leceh.. den me and babes ate @ noods (however u spell it). so tak sedap...den...............homesweethome. im going to tailor to change my sch skirt nye zip cos its rosak. pagi2 tadi buat hal. so i use another black skirt.. den after going to tailor im meeting fyk. nak makan fish n chips k .. this time u cannot take my dish. i wont offer =p. till here.

2008-10-19T10:59:00.004+08:00

hey all. and so, my dad gave me the new phone he bought!! wheee!!!! w760i! actually, mmg patut pon die kasi pakai that fone. cos he upgrade MY LINE and bought tt fone. ok im so happy. =). smlm, kecoh pe kat east coast park. malas nak elaborate. jumpe fik jap abeh he sent me to izah's place cos got open house. reach der ard 10.30pm gitu. abeh baring2 ngn izah dlm bilik, gossip, story telling, tgk cite hantu etc. i was so tired. nari dayne ader open house but i dun think im going. sorry dayne. aniwaes, u all shud try listening to GOODBYE by MILEY CYRUS. im so addicted to the song. ok la i shall end my update here today. have a nice day ya'll.

2008-10-18T00:12:00.016+08:00

ANIWAY U ALL, IM CURRENTLY NOT USING HP. MY 2ND BRO PAKAI COS HE SENT HIS TO SERVICE CNTR. SO ANYTHING CALL MY HOUSE. (unless my dad is kind enough to lent me one of his spare fone, den ya'll can reach me thru my mobile)

the 3 curly hair girls and barney (lol)

malam2 tanak balek.. kedai smue dah tutop, kiter merempat kat lua..

my bitch got herself an ipod touch and she wrote this at her notes

happy birthday shafiq. u know u love my presents. hahaha!!!

well, today syidah came over my hse, we dvd-ed for a while and then went out. lepak. met shafiq and then gave him his birthday present. i bought for him a bag from converse, body shop's soap and adidas' waterbottle. im glad fiq likes it.. then we met wan ci. baru nak lepak skali kedai tutop.. sappp.. so we took lots of fotos. and kedai at interchange terbakar sey.. so pitiful. deret macdonal cpf building. satu deret hangus. haha. we lepak at pondok den suddenly got bynk moto tau den me and babe dh mcm takot. skali....!!!! si faliq pulak!! ruper2 nya, those mat moto are my senior in sec sch. walauey.. so me and faliq lek chill bual2 jap.. catch up on old times.. bynk2 tmpt, nmpk die pt pondok plak..

AIR YG TENANG JGN SANGKA TIADA BUAYA.

KWANG KWANG KWANG.

familiar kan that phrase =p

u noe i noe la kan girlfriends.

2008-10-12T23:02:00.011+08:00

phew. finally, jalan raya is over..today was the best. pics will b uploaded once i get hold of them. i miss my potential.
.

'Cause it's over,I swear it's over this time.So don't keep calling leavin' messages,Don't wanna know where you been

...'cause it's over
im trying to erase you off my mind

2008-10-10T00:02:00.015+08:00

u've been wonderful & all that u can be

thanks thanks thanks for the long 3 years of love. i guess for now, the pieces dont fit anymore.
and you know what i mean.. thanks for ignoring my calls, hanging up on me, avoiding me.
insyaAllah i will be able to move on (with the help of my gfs that is!)

my daily life:
these are the neoprint fotos we took ystd at cathay.

sorry auntie.

they are my only strength in life.

meeting point was at syidah's plc. so me and siti went over and then we proceed to compass point to eat long john where this girl tapped on my shoulder to ask me for my hp number cause her guy friend nak kenal2. i was like, ape eh? why me eh? before that, we heard the guys in that group asking one another, "kau nak yang mane? yang baju hitam, hitam atau hitam?" its pure coincidence that we 3 wore black tank top and 3 quater skirt. then, we wen to sentosaaaa. gerek kepe. altho its only the 3 of us, we had fun! then while walking at the beach, budak2 lelaki melayu kacau. they said "my favourite colour is black!". get it? like i said. all of us is wearing black tank top. so yeah. dorng saje nak kacau. in the train otw back to vivo, ader pakcik stalker talked to syidah. kwang3. at vivo,ader grp of minah cari pasal siak ngn kiter.. dun wanna talk bout it lah. ingt nak g karaoke, skali ct sakit. ok den we went to town to take neoprint. No, its not kental k.. so ct went back naik cab from cathay, me and syidah took train. sampai kt tamp, i heard someone calling my name. skali toleh, eh! shahryl. LOL. my primary school friend. bual2 kejap. den we went our separate ways. skali nak beli eyeliner, eh! nampak my primary sch fren lagi, Baizurah. haha. den nak balek, syidah went to meet wan ci while i took a bus home alone. ader 2 matrep ikot kiter sey.. ewww. ok whatever. aniwae babes, sory if i irritate u two tadi cause i know i act like a psychotic freak talking, smiling, kissing my own hp. kwang3!!!! hahahahahaha!!!! u noe i noe la kan .. =p

2008-10-09T10:08:00.022+08:00

my time was filled with joy, laughter and wonderful people around me yesterday. thanks thanks thanks. despite of losing my voice, the plan for yesterday night still went on. and i really did have fun. we laugh, we scream, we tease, we took pics & we gossip...there we a total of 6 people including me. 5 guys and myself. but they are all nice people. we chilled at arab street first. while ngh lepak, this toyota wish car pass my us and lagu dier buat kuat2. P plate summore. skali check2, the driver is BOY (kwn fikri, farihin). i was like, erg! azri and all kutuk boy sey.. dorng ckp kreta bapak2 abeh nak step bukak lagu kuat2. makkk.. whatever la..made our way "there" at 10.45pm and sui-sui we reach at 11pm.went there by car. Azri drove. His car's radio and tv is spoilt so we had to make our own radio which is our own jokes. half way thru while we're at that place, i suddenly felt hungry. too hungry tt i wanted to vomit. so was azri. so me and him decided of eating supper after that. while we were at that place still, i lost my voice and the guys was teasing me. my bro went out to excuse himself for quite some time, about, 30 mins-45 mins so i was there with azri & jasman. it was so cold that mywhole body was numb. the material of my cardigan is too thin so i borrowed azri's sweater and kesian dier, kesejukan. we (me & azri)both dah tired. we chill one corner, rest our heads. my abg, jasman, owerk and another guy, still active.blah bleh bloh, we went to eat supper at simpang. azri's eyes were too tired to drive. but Alhamdulillah we managed to reach home safely. reached home ard 4+ in the morning tadi. too tired. so i went to sleep straight when i saw my bed. and now, im forced to wake up cause its another happy day for me. the plan today and tonight is more fun den yesterday.
thanks. im off to bathe now.
timecheck: 10.19am.
i only had 4 hours of sleep =(
but its ok. what can i say. girls just wanna have fun.
see you again this sunday, azri.
sleepover time! kwang3.

it hurts when u say that u understand me

2008-10-08T11:10:00.004+08:00

my girl, one of them who is my 2nd half. i love you i love you i love you. thank you for spending your everyday with me. i cudnt ask for more. no guy will ever replace you. promise k. hehhz.

guess what people, i kinda lost my voice and this sucks!!! malam nie baru plan nak gi...alah ader la but yang penting is, my voice is lost and cm mane nak klua malam nie?! oh well. apelah naseb.

2008-10-07T09:12:00.009+08:00

yesterday, i met up with my lovelies. i went over to syidah's place, chill2 makan kuih2 and watch the hills with her (romantic or what) til 1.30pm. then we made our way to AMK mrt station to meet emma at bugis and i bought the skirt and top i wanted. plus bangle and necklace. the total i spend ystd was.. 27 bucks. hey! considered cheap k. top, bottom, necklace and bangle for 27 bucks. you dont need expensive stuff to look nice. its how u mix and match it. and so, i bought all my needs. and im gonna save my few hundred dollars in my bank!my contact lens was torturing me so i decided to open it and pinjam emma's casing. then, i shall not elaborate more about what happned btwn 5.30pm - 6.30pm cos my gfs noe what happened. they made their way to PS and as for me, i made my way to Pasir ris to meet fikri.

u noe i noe what happened fikri. and i'll keep to my words this time.

anw, shira if you reading this, im planning to go out with nasri and dzul around november or december. nasri suro kau open table. hahaha! (since kau kaya, why not. collection bynk kan). anything u msg me k

Whatever you give a woman, she’s going to multiply.
If you give her sperm, she’ll give you a baby.
If you give her a house, she’ll give you a home.
If you give her groceries, she’ll give you a meal.
If you give her a smile, she’ll give you her heart.
She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.
So - if you give her any crap, you will receive a ton of shit.

2008-10-06T12:33:00.002+08:00

im currently @ babygirl's place now.she's dressing up while here i am uploading fotos from her digicam that we took on saturday.

2008-10-05T18:43:00.009+08:00

I'm looking for the peace to find some sleep tonight
Cause I'm Not very proud of the way I have lived today.

Me, Aini and daya. the good old days.

(ignore the date. daya salah set the date. this pic is not taken on 2004 k)

i followed parents to market today. deposit some money. me & dad went to TM to helloshop to change my plan to student plan but it was a long story and in the end we didnt change ownership. then dad and me ate at KFC, and then when we were making our way to NTUC, we stopped by this spectacles shop and dad bought this sunglasses and as for me, dad bought for myself a pair of contact lens. finally, my "craving" for contact lens is over. thnks dad. then, we made our way home sweet home..

Needs:
that skirt @ bugis
that top @ bugis

pending:
samsung's mp3 (quite essential for me cos music is my everything)

Wants:
hair dye
contact lens (got it from daddy today)
many2 tops
many2 bottom
lasagne @ secret recipe
digi cam
curl my hair

big spender kepe!!!!

2008-10-04T19:50:00.004+08:00

me, iqah, fred, wan pao and saiful made our way to syidah's open house today around 2+. yeap its just the 5 of us. we slack at syidah's place till 4+ and we made our way home. lucky for me, i had 1 straight bus home! 72!! gees* wanted to buy rollers but tkde seh kat houg point. had some arguements with fikri simply cause he didnt trust me but i didnt blame him. entah eh. my relationship with him is way too rocky den i ever imagine but insyaAllah im gonna get over this. i really cant wait to go karaoke this wednesday. till here. more fotos will b uploaded when syidah sent me thru msn from her camera. and as for today, my house pon ader mcm open house gitu lah. my cousins auntie all coming to my place. and my mum masak sedap2. sambal udang especially but fucking hell to my ulcer, i takleh makan. baik kan. mcm siak.. so ok lor =(

2008-10-04T03:23:00.004+08:00

yesterday, i met dyla to shop and accompany her for manicure. she bought for her "guy" this love cup which is super cool! and i bought for fikri a wristband since he lost his but he cakap tak lawa seh =(. but nvm. so after meeting dyla, i went to meet fikri somewhere near dyla's place and then me and fik headed to kembangan.we both kept laughing ajer. well, u noe i noe la what happened kan fikri =p. abg reza called tanye nak ikut dier g arab st lepak ke tk so i met abg later at night ard 10+ fik sent me and fik talk2 ngn abang. soon, abg's friend (azri), azri's younger sis, and azri's friend arrived. so 5 of us lepak2 at hajjah esah's cafe till 1145pm. den me and abang balik naik moto and the other 3 naik car cos azri got car. so then, abang and azri dah confirm nak g karaoke nx wed and im tagging cos abg ajak. yey. karaoke seh. tak penah pergi nak try nie abg mesti blanje. hehehh. ok la. just wanna end this post with lots of love to fikri.

2008-10-03T13:14:00.005+08:00

checked my results. 3A's 1C.

Office communication - A
Office Software application - A
Customer relation - A
Basic personal finance - C
Total Gpa: 3.625

this is superb. very very superb. im proud of myself. mum & dad congratulate me.

im accompanying dyla for her manicure session and at the same time we are catching up on our lifes. which then later at night i'll be meeting fikri. ok. im off for now. bye.

i do what my heart thinks is right. and i know, everything's right when im with you. i love you fikri. time pass by so fast. its been 3 years since we known each other. but only 2yrs almost 10 months been together. i really2 appreciate all your efforts in saving and reviving this relationship.

2008-10-03T01:39:00.005+08:00

spent my 2nd day of raya with fikri. no we didnt "jalan raya". we literally went shopping together. i went to deposit my money in the bank. then we went to mustafa centre to shop. and then to KFC to eat like a pig, bought murtabak for his family, "shop" at bugis street and lastly played arcade at kallang leisure park. i almost bought this puma watch wich cost 89 bucks but fik said that the watch isnt nice. well. ape2 lah. hmmph. i want to sit @ home and rot. i dont want to go work anymore. really.
my results was a bomb.!

OFC- A
OSA- A
CRN- A
BPF- C
TOTAL GPA: 3.625

eh this is super good enough for me. BPF, expected la i got C cos i didnt realy so into it. but well, fik is the 1st i informed abt my result but dier mcm tak happy for me so, whatthehell kan. then i called my parents and they were soooo happy. i mean, yah.. im so lazy. so hard to see me study but see, i prove them wrong.. tsk tsk tsk..

and as for today, im planning to watch "the house bunny" with fikri. ive been craving for the lasagne from secret recipe but fik cakap "tempat murah2 makanan lebih sedap". true. 1 good example: KFC. but i cnt eat much altho im super2 hungry. thx to the ulcer i have on my lips. it hurts. =(. ok lah. i want to rot and home right now. till here.

2008-10-01T22:36:00.007+08:00

getting stuck in a jam is the reason why i hate to take cars.

we have always been using the same colour. me and 1st bro

lawa samer2, buruk samer2. these 2 are my life.

my malam raya was well spent with my love one. we spent the whole night together. yes im so selfish to even share him with his family.. thank god he was driving instead of riding the bike cause it was raining yesterday. thnks again, fikri

today, the frequent phrase people say to me is:
"YAYAN DAH KURUS EH"
(yea right. i still think im fat. bynk gilerrrr org ckp aku dah kurus. mcm happy gitu sey)

and the frequent question asked to me is:
"YAYAN DAH KERJE EH?"
(stop it. im working cause its the hols kan korng nie dah kenaper. im still schooling so i need duet raya ok)

so izah went home early today. she said she wanted to revise for her N's tomorrow. but she updated her blog. babi kan.
today, i collected $487.
best kan? i noe.
bye. i want to recount my duit raya
(stop it siak radh)

selamat hari raya aidilfitri.

2008-09-29T14:15:00.001+08:00

nasri. just sent you a nudge.

nasri. says:
send me the song u're listening?
nasri. says:
mine's abit unclear.
nasri. says:
thankyouuuuuuuu
nasri. says:
=D
radh says:
dowan
nasri. says:
LOCEK
nasri. says:
LOL
nasri. says:
IS THAT HOW U SPELL IT?

ahahaha. cute kan dier.. oh he's my chinese cousin btw. hhaha. he was trying to spell LOKEK.

2008-09-29T00:23:00.005+08:00

holla and i just came back from celebrating my mother's birthday at pattaya restaurant. had a nice nice meal with my family and i saw my ex colleague. she was siting with her family. to my surprise, her parents and my parents are friends. so me and my 2nd bro RELUCTANTLY, and i really mean reluctantly, went over to their seats and "salam" them. soon after, 1st bro came. then, we ate and yeah.. mom, me, dad and bro bought shoe and my shoe is super nice.. i bought everything necessary today. raya shoes, my liquid foundation and many2 more.tell me bout it. its great going out with your parents right? ahah. then me and bro played a stupid game.

1st bro: ok kiter tengok thru out our journey kat geylng, yayan atau abg nmpk kwn kiter lebeh bynk
me: ok.
hha ..lame kan

2008-09-28T00:52:00.005+08:00

first half of today sucks sucks sucks. had a tiff with fikri and everything was pure dead. so then, we managed to pull it thru (somehow) and i started doing my work normally. i then met syidah at paya lebar mrt station and siti at ct hall. we 3 had our break fast together and it was oh-so ramai org gitu. (like duh). F1 race so thats y ramai people. last2 we buka at secret recipe marina sq's branch. syidah and siti ordered spag meatballs and as for me i ordered lasagne. we had so much fun gitu kan buka together again. how can i not say i love them so much! then syidah made me and siti walk all the way to charles and keith just to buy her shoe but sorry babygirl, they dont have your size kan. hehehe =p. so i made my way to kallang alone to meet fikri. but he was late. janji jumpe at 9.25pm. i reached at 9.10pm and he reached at 9.40pm. bagus la eh. hahaha. aku siang sgt dier lambat sgt. so we made our way to atm to pay for my baju and fikri gave me a big surprise. shhh!! its a secret. tsk tsk!! thanks fikri. really. then we went to buy food and i bought myself nail polish and fikri apply it for me. how nice. =). he's been doing my nails for me through out these times. im glad the 2nd half of my day is filled with love. all thanks to fikri himself, syidah and siti.

and lastly since its 1.02am now which means its 28 sept, i wanna wish something to a special someone.

happy 48th birthday mum! you are still young. dont worry.

(i cant wait for us family to breakfast together. i love you mum. we love you)

2008-09-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

waiting patiently..

2008-09-25T14:15:00.001+08:00

At the end of the story, she won.
but at the end of the day, i still am the champion.
beat me bitch?
think again.

2008-09-23T07:58:00.005+08:00

love me for me and not for what i wear.

but so what..im still what i am..

2008-09-21T16:25:00.002+08:00

yesterday was so hectic. i didnt sleep after sahur and played the lappy til 645am and had my bath and made my way to work. i reached exactly at 830am and im proud of myself. tsk. then came fara at 10 and haney at 1130. haney came at 1130 and went off at 130. fara was a lil mad that she said "mak, puas hati takya dtg siak. Step nak g MCYS je. padehal jumpe jantan". ok i guess shes really pissed. then me and fara started to slack! i slept for 3 hours and fara was on the fone. lepak kan.. den i went over to fik's plc to get my stuff back. so while on the way in the bus, i saw fik's bike passed by my bus and i was like "shit". cos he's faster den me. i mean, he didnt noe i was going over. then i sat under his blk til like 8pm. sedih or what buka sorng2 bwh blk..den he saw me and made his way down and said "ok jom ikut i jumpe arab and boy smue". sapppp. siape siak nak gi ikot jumpe dorng.. den fik told me faeza was at his plc. as in, outside. i was like, ARRGGHHH. den i went up to fik's plc and saw faeza and we both shouted. !!! hahahaha.. idiot.. den i told fitri to amek helmet puteh cos me and fik wanted to throw it away cos itu helmet aku punye la kan tapi dh bekas pmpan sundal yg fik tompang. den me and fik wen to buy new helmet ystd and threw that white helmet. thnks la eh for the new helmet. den we all jalan2.. go geylang and all.. last2 balek at 2am.. so late.. den i ate my ramly and went to bed and everyone was in my room (xcept my 2 bro). cos i on aircon and my parents' room the air con rosak.. so i slept at my bro's room.then i woke up and slept in my room on the floor with my sis (cos my parents slept on my bed) and then my sis kicked me. i woke up at 3pm today and what.. im gonna buka alone.. thnks eh... *eye roll*

2008-09-20T06:40:00.002+08:00

i have totally not time for myself.

"Don't ever look back.
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance.
Don't sell your heart.
Don't say we're not meant to be."

2008-09-14T16:50:00.006+08:00

he wants SPACE, we give him SPACE. big SPACE in between

kill me, someone. i suddenly feel like blogging all over again. life's been so dull. too much happened past few days. im a free woman now. exams are done and im very very satisfied. i had everything memorised in the morning of the xam thnks to my girls. straight after my last paper, that evening i went to salon and had my hair highlighted. i fucking look like a minahrep a lil with this blonde hair. i asked for white blonde seh. but it turned out diff. i look like a HOLY SHIT right now...ystd, i went to work and then meet up with the rest of my friends at paya lebar. they waited for me at the bus stop where i alighted. it was a total mistake to wear my dorothy perkin's long sleeve top, really. it was all pre-planned. total, there were 14 people. a lot huh.. lets list them down.

couples
wan pao and sherry
dyla and safwan
mas and bf

others
myself
iqah
syidah
saiful
shafiq
fadhil
fadhil's friend
sarinah (i think hats her name)

i felt so bad that i didnt buy for saiful anything for his bdae wich was on last fri. wanted to buy fer him fcuk's perfume but i really had no time. so i bought burger ramly and just placed a candle on top of the burger. altho it was kinda crap, what saiful told me was "its the thought that counts". yes, again, happy birthday saiful. you are old!

the food and drinks we ordered was utterly crap. as in, the service of the shop was inefficient and slow. we then walked ard bazaar and practically, it was to find my baju. and der was kuda kepang. with shafiq around, everyone seems happy. laughing their ass out! we all reached home quite late but i guess im the one that reach hm the lastest. reachd home at 12.15am like that and i was damn tired. so yeah. i had a nice day with them cos they are my true lovely friends. i love you all. thanks.

2008-09-01T16:18:00.004+08:00

ramadhan?
suddenly this year's ramadhan doesnt feel so special.
baju raya?
no more "jom pakai same colour" feeling.
baazar?
im not going this year perhaps.

dead.
everything is dead.
the feeling inside me is so so dead.

2008-09-01T12:51:00.005+08:00

i was browsing thru my bro's laptop and my thumbdrive and saw all this old pics of myself which i find it funny. all these pics are taken at least 1 yr ago. which means, non of the pic are taken during 2008. its all 2007 2006, 2005, 2004 or 2003. makk,, kental pe..

when bangs was the "IN" thing

eee. makeupless.

i love the color of my hair. this was...2006

anis and me (fought becos of ps2)

kental makdodol siol.. this is so sec 1 (2003)

kental kental kental!!!!! 2004

2008-08-31T23:59:00.007+08:00

see that guy in red? thats shah, aini's bf. saje2 nak snap2. hahahahah.

ystd, i went out with my babes. met shahirah ard 2 at eunos mrt and we was planning to ride on the singapore flyers but didnt. then, we proceed to kfc marina sq and had out lunch. bla3, we both bought the same pants, same colour from the same shop BUT different size. she bought size 3 wherelse i bought size 1. hehh. its worth it. we bought the pants at bods bodynits. the ori price of the pants is 66.90 but it was discounted all the way to 18 bucks. worth every single cent. then, we went to penin and shop for a while and she had to go home before prayers. so i was bored to death. in the end, i met the biggest bitch on earth, at pasir ris. who else if not MISS FAEZA. hahahaha. met faeza at pasir ris and we went to ehub to bowl but then again, it was full. so we went to chill at coffeebean while waiting fer fik. and when fik came, drama started. whats new...

and as for today, my photoshot was cancelled. how annoyed i was. its all because of errands we had to settle with. met fik 1st. then we took my shirt from iqah, and proceed to meet amerul to take the car. then amerul's sis tumpang cause wanted to pay smtg at courts. its like, we spent the whole day and i really mean the whole day running errands. til at night, just imagine how furious i was. went to fik's bro's house den send stuff to fik's house bla bla bla. went to bugis fer a while to finally meet my babygirl, Deera (D, for short). she was working and yeah, i miss her.

2008-08-29T13:10:00.016+08:00

my heart's too weak for another relapse.

I'm not positive that I can give the commitment that you're asking for.

school was alright. there's a "strongman" challenge today in school but i didnt bother bout it that much. watch "mad abt eng" at auditorium. den ate lunch at sch. there's a guy caught my attention in the bus. reason being, he's the exact duplicate of my abg sdare. i was shocked. according to aini, he was looking at me most of the times. hmm. and he alighted at the 1st tamp bus stop. i was still in the bus. we accidentally had an eye contact. disgust me! err. tmr is a long long day for me. shopping, eating, gossipping!!

slimy! good to know my bro and ur bro are friends! and 2 of my frens are ur acquintance.! =p

thnks for comforting. really.

life's better now. partially better.

no more heartbreaking. its hearthealing, for now.

i cried at dtwn east ystd but im happy, i have faeza. altho everyone there was watching at us, u think we gv a fuck? we sat so tak senonoh. we put our legs up on the chair. as for me, i did just that. i opened my shoes too. yes its not appropriate. but who cares????? i love you bitch.

faeza's right. i shudnt let a bitch's words bring me down. at the end of the day, bitches win. i lose. so, no point.

2008-08-27T13:29:00.010+08:00

early 2007
wan din myself

i('V)My BitCh

pictures of you, pictures of me.

my emotions are controlling me for the past days.

i need anger management and tears control.

2008-08-26T13:59:00.013+08:00

Life is kinda messy at the moment, And I don't know where it's going to take me.
I'm losing grip of everything.
EVERYTHING

2008-08-25T10:06:00.011+08:00

TIME TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT!

2008-08-19T22:42:00.007+08:00

aini's art piece about myself. (haha!)

typical singaporean, "chop" place using tissue paper.

2008-08-14T23:53:00.001+08:00

I'm looking for the peace to find some sleep tonight
Cause I'm Not very proud of the way I have lived today.

I hope you're happy now after making me a fool in front of your friend.
THANKS. (sarcasm)
all i afford to do was cry, call my FRIENDS, cry, cry, cry.
im so weak for this.
im giving up.
u win.
bye.

2008-08-13T22:42:00.003+08:00

i hate to be in the situation of being the centr person. NURAINI BTE JALANI, im really sorry for what had happened. yes its my fault. be mad at me if theres a need.. =[. FIKRI BIN MOHD YUSOFF, im sorry too. bottomline is, im really sincerely apologising to these 2 people whom i love.
today was totally fucked up. i had bruises on my back and my backbone hurts so much. i shall not really elaborate why but i see it coming. me and my big mouth. like a malay proverb goes "kerana mulut, badan binasa". yeah.. now i have plaster all over my body. haiz..but everything was kinda alright soon after. had my lunch + dinner @ saffrons.
n yes. not forgetting, my L'oreal 2 way powder foundation broke into pieces!!! the powder, the cover, and the mirror all broke into pieces. siak ah.. if tt stupid powder cost me $ 5 or $10 bux, id wudnt really break my heart. but helo. i bought it for $29.90 (quite ex for a powder dont ya think so). anything can be destroyed but never never never my make up set. cos all of them are ex. dammit.
i "pop-ed" the qn today but it was a dissappointment tho about the outcome. why must i even think about it when i knew all along that was what i wanted? why? nvm. im tired now. i need to rest and ease my mind of this. my friendship is at risk. why must it always be ... me, risking my friendship, for someone i love? this totally sucks to the core.

2008-08-12T17:54:00.006+08:00

I deleted my friendster
heck care.
friendster is giving me "real life issues."
so, dont you think you should do something to yours, too?
well, you decide. i shall say nothing.
Things like this comes with willing-ness & not being forced

2008-08-04T19:36:00.004+08:00

c.i.n.t.a

2008-08-03T12:03:00.006+08:00

10 jan 2004?? ape je camera si E.T nie. date pon tak set. Its suppose to be 1 aug 2008. i didnt look this gd backthen in 2004. haha.

actually, im so lazy to update my blog already.
all i want you people to know is...

i bought anna sui's wallet. itu aje.
(layankan la cos im happy sgt sgt i bought it.)

oh ya Mr. when can i have the money that u owe me??? Running away wont solve it.

2008-07-31T22:27:00.006+08:00

triplets.

i thot its gonna be "drop the past and be true". =;[

2008-07-30T21:39:00.003+08:00

since ystd bro has been smsing me to teman him to go bugis to help him chose specs cause he wanna buy. maklumlah, abg no galpren mah.. no galpren baru find me.. haha.. nolah nolah. so finally met abg today at 8pm at bugis. search high and low (bedek seh, padehal 1st kdai near the entrance jek dh dpt specs abg) for the specs. cheap and nice. ok den abg tanye i wan aniting or not. jalan2, tk nmpk anything appealing to my eyes. so, tk beli pape. until i saw this baju.. freaking nice. very simple formal and nice. 14.90 je.. yes.. AJE. haha. den i asked abg, nice ke tk, he said nice, and said ok, he'll buy for me since i tman him to bugis, so yey, another baju to add on to my collection. while paying, abg saw his budak design. the guy was like..

fren: eh kau ader adek? tk bilng pon? adek name siapE?
me: smile
fren: jgn takot la. abang tk makan org.
abg: ah yer, tak makan org. takpe. jgn takot yan. ABANG ader sini.
me: smile
fren: adek kau lawa lah..
abg: k la. balek dulu.. chao
fren: bye adek.. senyum sikit
me: smile, again
fren: sweet nye dier senyum.

PUKE! disgusted siak jantan mcm nie. otw walking to moto abg, abg told me, "laki mcm gini tkmo layan. merepek". haha. betul tu.. so tadi kiter kan mcm race gitu kt road ngn moto2 lain. ader pakcik nie nak race ngn abg. mampos. abg said this to me when we dh smpai carpark my hse.

"bilng pakcik tu, dier dh tua. insaf la"

HAHA FUNNY. THNKS ABG, AGAIN, FOR THE BAJU. i love you abg. (not jst cos of the baju but really from the bottom of my heart).

AND YES AH!! BSK START SKUL AT 10AM instead of 8am! amin. bole aku tido lamer sikit. =D

aniwaes, im applying werk as dental assistant. sat interview. mampos. haha. muke aku? dental assistant? habes ah gigi client. itam siak

2008-07-25T14:14:00.007+08:00

armin&fok. (ok i donoe whats fok real name. its saiful i think?? k aku smarang)

my bubbly girl, gracia.

fok again

yesterday was the bad day ever for me and armin. luck wasnt on our side i suppose? but its ok. we got each other's back.armin got dismissed. and as for me, i went to sch for my high elements shit. my shorts and shirt was in the locker. but i realised i didnt bring my key only when i was standing right in front of my locker. and damn, i went home lor.. a bad bad day. armin sedih dier kene buang. kesian eh. tu la kau slalu tak pergi keje but as time goes towards afternoon and night, things got better for us. met armin and suhaimi and we sat down lepak while waiting for shasha. armin and suhaimi went to kelly serives and armin got a new job offer and he's starting tonight at dhl. good fer him. smlm kene buang, smlm jgk dpt keje. while waiting for shasha, fok came. he joined us. so when after tt, the 5 of us proceed to parkway to play pool. i won in my game with armin! but lost by 1 ball during my game with shasha. =[. haha. then the four of us xcept fok, played the "spot the diff in the 2 pics" game. kecoh siak..

"ah lagi sikit je". sikit tetek kau. hahahah. pastu we went back to tamp and eat at saffrons. and saw amerul nas and azri. and not forgetting, i think i saw muz? ntah. biar. alah msti die bilng his dear gf "i nampak radhyah ngn laki lain". ah confirm nye la. 1 org nye mulut mcm 100000000. erg. nak bilng fik, bilang la kau.. im not scared. im so over it. naik malas aku org tuduh2 aku smarang. what, i cant have frens, isit like tt? wdv la. so, den balek lor.. and anw, iqah got a new fone kan.. so do i. =). thnks a million

fikri is dearly missed by me. somehow somewhere i know he's reading this, laughing and will be saying "hah, mcm paham ah". sukati kau la fikri.. naik malas aku.. i guess my 2008's birthday is a sucky one. its either a double happiness, or double sadness. its up to me to decide. well, no. its decided. and im prepared for the worst.

2008-07-22T15:56:00.012+08:00

nas' fren nak kenal2? ughh. and he gave me that "paper" with the name and hp num. as if im gonna msg? haha. peah made me felt like rebound and thats it man. Nomore.

Probably im lying if i say im not thinking bout fikri? im thinking bout all the shit we went thru. arg. good fer him now he has anth girl. ah, so what? no big deal. Im more den happy with my current life. my happiness. my everything. what else cn i ask for from god? god is giving me new life. im gonna cherish this new life.

bestfriends?they xist? dammit. i donch (ikut aini's pronounciation) know.

and oh oh. aini daya shefah, rmmbr this?

fivesome. foursome. threesome, twosome, HANDSOME. and omg! awesome!! haha. ok its stuck in my head.

Ok im movin on. *cross fingers*.

cause i know i can do it.

aini's eyes got punched by me

2008-07-20T19:21:00.010+08:00

its never easy to see me in "baju melayu" but today, some saw. .So, ystd mum gave me some money to blanje. thnks mum. U know ur daughter. she's running out of money and u gave her a few hundreds? that nice. Thnks so much mummy. =D. Alhamdulillah, god's giving me a new hope in life. and i hope im making and choosing the right path this time. Being single doesnt mean sorrow. I still have frens. Finally met iqah. dah lame tk lepak ngn dier. so lepak lor. she said its gd if i were to buy life insurance in case kalau aku kene accident. haha .. okok its an inside joke. oni we know what. den wen we were walking, this grp of guys pekik my name and her name. and the guy was like "RIAN! Bastard seh tk knal kwn lamer". and when i turned, sial. aku tk kenal satu pon siak. bodoh. iqah also tk knal. so me and iqah talked bout real stuff. REAL STUFF. ystd, met my babygirl, siti. went joo chiat and then to downtwn. den went home take cab cos serious business waiting at toilet. hahaha. k la probably thats all? yeah.. thats my weekend. and i didnt know my name was changed to izan??hahaha. shasha called me izan. jauh nyeeee izan ngn rian. hahah.. okok. penat aku nyari. tc people. =D

im missing my 2nd bro so much right now! im feel like crying. the last i called him was.. on friday when he just reached on phuket. he said he wanted to buy for me bra and he got the cheek to ask my bra size summore. pantat tau this irritating brother. I miss him anw.omg. arggg. come home soon abang. (with presents pretty pls)

2008-07-11T22:16:00.008+08:00

watched hancock today.thatsboutit.

you love me, too. not in the same way, i know.
but you're not my whole life either.
not anymore.

but.
I love you. Not maybe, not tomorrow, not someday, right now - at this very moment.
I realized something. I need you, I trust you, I admire you, I want you.
You can be wrong a lot of the time, and we can fight, and get mad at each other,
but nothing, nothing in this world can change the fact that I love you Fikri. You've changed me alot. You make me feel right. The whole world is in disarray, but with you everything is good. I love you. And that terrifies me cause i know you aint feeling the same towards me

2008-07-08T23:20:00.007+08:00

one and two, im in love with you.
three and four, you're all i adore.
seven and eight, See I’ve been making mistakes
Back to the five and six, I’m all in you mix and Im all into you
Without the L’Oreal, would i remain the same angel that you fell for?

2008-07-03T18:41:00.006+08:00

went shopping, lepak, work and everything i did today was tiring

2008-07-02T22:37:00.006+08:00

Above is a conversation i had with my irritating brother. padehal kiter kat bilik bersebelahan siak. mampus. oh ya. click on the pic to enlarge. so Tdy i had dinner. a wonderful dinner. it kinda cost a bomb but its ok. bukan hari2 pe. work was alright. and aniwaes, me farah and asmah changed the office layout. its very very much spacious now. thnks to? FARAH =]. ok tmr working. Zzz. Im off to bed now. CHao peopleeee.

2008-06-27T22:12:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, finally today i got to meet Fikri after 1 mth+ of not meeting him. I miss him. but i dont know how to express it?? i was alone at work tdy cause farah n asmah kene go court so yeah, took half day. 4pm dah chao. met fik, he fetch me. Everything was so-so. Noone noes how much i love fikri.

chalet, was okay. reached late cause i work mah. den, tok to fik on the fone and gado (whats new) and yah, went off from chalet ard 1+ den went to pasir ris central with the 4 people at kedai kopi lepak til 3am+. it was super draining for me and i reached home ard 4.15am and cant get up to work sey. well. ok. dats all. I love ya fikri.

2008-06-22T14:37:00.008+08:00

its been too long and im lost without you.

sheesha was great. thanks fellow friends.

2008-06-17T21:30:00.004+08:00

Hi babes.

dyla: yes dyla im meeting u guys tmr. dah plan kan. im not going for the doa slamat thingy.!

din: Yes whore. meet ya tmr.! =p

so yeap. tmr im sooooooooooo busyyyy!!! meeting 2 guys in the morning, 2nd grp in the afternoon for lunch perhaps, and the 3rd grp for sheesha in the evening. and fuck it. baru nak amek off, skali chris suro me dtg cos ader customer nak buat bende and he put me in charge. so i'll b cuming for half day morning til afternoon.

Called singtel to enquire about continue-ing my line but just wanna change the hp num, i gotta pay 30 bux. and change of ownership, another 20 bux. yeap yeap. gonna do just that this week or latest by nx week. so people, i'll inform ya ma new num yeah..

gonna get myself mango's hot pants for 35 bux. i like the material. cooling. yeap so, besok mcm gerek gitu. mcm looking forward to go out with my diff grp of frens. im so tired. after werk, was supposingly to fetch babygirl from work with matin. so i met matin at expo, and we wanted to proceed to PS when babygirl called and said, takya amek?? mrajok eh?? sorry lah. so i went to tamp with matin and yeap, balek ah pastu. dah ngntok giler..

im so shag now. tadi i jalan2 sorang. imagine ah.. g bedok sorang2.. pastu g simei sorang2... hoping to see fikri sumwhere ard simei ke eh.. =p. ok fat hope.

k la. im so gonna sleep early tdy. chao people!

2008-06-16T18:38:00.003+08:00

ok SHOOTS. i just heard from my mum that this wed i gotta go my kak sdare's doa slamat fer her new hse ard aft maghrib. bloody shit.! baru plan ngn dorng2 wednesday nak p sheesha sial.. arr. okok im not going to my kak sdare's doa slamat uh. takpe. itu tk penting. frens more penting. =p.
like iqah said.. "kau dulu slalu ngn fik je. sikit ngn fik. smpai pulau kan kiter". yeap i admit that ah.. so foolish of me. so i think its time i shud spent time with them pulak.. if this wed jadi gi sheesha, it'll be my 2nd time. my 1st time wasnt with people that i know of!! with strangers. it was last week. cos practically they are my fren's frenz. and im so stupid to swollow the asap. but for the rest of the puffs, i managed to kluakan thru my mouth. yeap. okok. so, today at work was tiring. Chris told me this. "radhyah, u make a good secretary". hahaha. I WISH!

& YES PEOPLE. PLS TAKE NOTE I WONT BE USING MY CURRENT HP NUM ANIMORE, SOON. CHANGING TO A NEW NUM IN A FEW DAYS TIME. i'll update ya guys whats ma new num personally.

Probably what gfs said bout letting go and move on is a must for me right now. The thought of Fikri is holding me back. Yap i still love him but yeah.. Its ego.. he msg me each week. altho he msg me full of maki2, i noe deep down he care for me. yes i do too. but takpe. both ego. both tanak cari each other. so y even bother and look back when i noe things wont be the same animore??? yeap im moving on so not to worry.! =p. Some people are so, prasaan eh.. ntah asal eh.. haiya.. abeh smarang2 jerrr attack org sia.. so tkde keje lain.. ok wtf ah nie org smue tak perlu sia dalam idop aku. And so, i cant wait to meet my 2 grp of frens this wed. ptg ngn the 1st grp, evening til late night with the other grp. But im looking forward to klua with the evening grp. HAh. okokokok. wtf here.
I love you all my friends!

& to the 3 guys, IM so sorry. its not time for me to accept any of your love right now. as U ALL noe, i still have feelings for fikri. and AS U ALL noe too, if fikri were to ask to be with me again, i'll say YES. but AND AS U ALL NOE, that will never happen. he will never ask tt. but whatever it is, Im sorry but to decline u all nye love for now. You guys noe who u 3 are.

Tak perlu kau ucap "baby i love you so". Cause You lost that place in my heart.

2008-06-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

today, was a working day for me. yeap. and it was raining heavily right? so dad sent me to work. he sent me, bro and mum to our destination. he sent me last. so yeah, its so fucking random for my dad to actuali talk abt me and fikri. whats there to talk about actually???? its over right??? haiz. i just got to know that Fikri msged my dad. and my dad said.
"papa tk reply. y shud i? i dont like when other people slap my girl"
yes dad. i love u. muacks. hahaha.
so at work today was draining. like really. hais. too many things in my mind right now. okok.
met Matin after work. was suppossed to go sheesha but apparently kan, some people kan, tukar plan.. so yeah.. just met matin at sing post and we ate at kfc. we saw diff kinds of people there. yang bau chilli lain, yang tgh diri abeh tibe2 jatuh lain, yang takde duit abeh makan kfc abeh minta air plain 4 cups abeh kentut lain.. hahaha. mepek sey.. and i dont know why, and how come the topic bout CINER MAMPOS came abt, but matin was wondering why chinese can still eat good food and can play mahjong when people die. hahaha. so he said, abeh melayu main congkak ar. CINER main mahjong, MLAYU main congkak. i was laughing. dats pretty kental.and also kan!!!
hahaha. someone doesnt know whats TAGBOARD is.
i was like,

Me: ___ tagged at my blog stupd stuff uh.
ANONYMOUS: whats a tagboard?
Me: smth people say to u or abt u at ur blog
ANONYMOUS: oh, TAgboard tu kat which side of u block?
me: huh??
ANONYMOUS: kat lift eh?
me: LAUGHING... no. its BLOG. not BLOCK

kau kental sia tu org. hahahahahha. u noe i noe uh. hmmm. =p

practically the day spent with matin was filled with laughters and yeah, i stepped on shit. ok shut up. im duing my project now.. and it sucks. arg.

and yeap, fikri msged me tadi. cant be bothered to reply. haiz. naik malas aku!!!! ok lah.. babe, if u reading this, i cant afford to lose u. but at the same time, i cant afford to lose "dier" too. =(
god dammit.

2008-06-06T17:18:00.013+08:00

pout
Was waiting for shaf so, why not we snap? haha. BITCH!

yes, pout it
POUT!!!!!!!! this is Shaf. SHAFIEE ; the one who keeps asking me to eat papers and stop complaining.

Lets shorten this post. Went sch early to Accompany Mamat. den met Shaf after sch. Lepak. and yeah. Had my CRN test. Which insyaallah i can pass. Ok bye.

oh yes. while lepak with shaf, dayah and shefah send me a chained sms abt mcm.. if u send this to 6 of ur frens u will bla3 uh. a forward sms. showed shaf tt msg and we kinda laugh. haiya. pls people. stop sending me those kinda sms. i'll ignore. seriously. waste sms aku jek

someone smsed me this and i think its sweet.

"i dont know bout others bt for me i look for inner beauty.. n radhyah.. u r already pretty on ur own and u dun need fashion to make u more prettier"

i wanna cry.! i love ya, to the prsn who send me this. u're sucha sweetheart. ok shutup fuck

been tagged from fred. Ugh

01. At which age do you want to get married.
-25

02. Who is more important to you? Friends or girlfriends/boyfriends?
-Errr. Friends like duh

03.Who is/are the person/people you trust most?
-NURAINI, SITI EMMA, SYIDAH

04.Do you think you have enough confidence?
- pretty much

05.What would you do if someone abusing an innocent animal?
-Call SPCA. Let the person get caught

06.Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?
-No. LAme

07.What is your goal for this year?
-Get out of the freaking sch asap.!

08.Do you believe in Luck?
-Yeaps..

09.Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
-er. God knows.

10.What feeling do you love the most?
-The feeling of in the process of shitting. seriously uh.

11.If one day your bestfriend and boyfriend quarrel, who will you side with?
- Boyfriend. haha.

12.List out 5 of your bestfriends.
-Fred (has been i love u bitch), nuraini, siti, syidah anddddd... hidayahahahahaha! =p

13.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-Not every.

14.Do you like to hangout with friends?
-Not really. i'd rather spent time with my bf (if i have one. seriously!)

15.What/who do you think is/are the most important in your life?
-FAMILIA.

16.If you were on a ship, your mother and your boyfriend/girlfriend(been together for 2 years) were knocked out of the ship you only have one life float, who would you throw it to?
-MOm! idiotsss

17.If your girlfriend/boyfriend were to two-time you, what would you do?
-Be it ah.. lets play along

18.If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
-when i was single and leading a happy life, like now!!

19.Have you ever felt the true meaning of love?
-To a certain xtend, yes.

20. Who do I wish to see right now?
-honestly its fikri (ok aku mintak kene sepak jugak uh skg ngn sesiaper. wake me up and i shud stop missing him!!)

Remove one question from the above and add in your personal question. make a total of 20 questions and tag 7 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them at their tagboard that they've been tagged.

-aini
-daya
-aida
-shafiee
-joanne
-lyn
-??? (who else sia??haha!)

honestly this is a stupiddddddddddd questionaire.

2008-06-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

I'm not hesitating,I just don't wanna rushYou can be anywhere you wanna be,But you decided to be here wit me.No coincidence, it was meant to be

Im so afraid to say love. Im traumatized. I SWEAR I AM

wednesday, i played pool with A and as always, i lost! 2-1. ok fuck. den we ate at the downtown's tmpt makan and yeah, kinda didnt have the appetite. and b4 that in the mning, had my BRANCH at LJS with A, H, S, M, I, and another one i dont know the name. hehh. okay den, as always too, i vomit. A's always been there uh. but dier make fun by saying "eh berat pe cup nie" (cause i vomit in the cup). hahaha.ok crap.

thursday, wanted to watch congkak with A but mcm tanak gitu so we decided to play pool again. im addicted to pool ah now altho im sick and tired of losing all the time. but since ramai org, me and A went sumwhere else. something happened and im kinda traumatized by it. serious shit nye nie. Only my gfs tau uh what happened. dorng sendiri shocked. OK shuddup gals . dun u dare tag what happened ok, at my tagbrd!!

friday (today). sch starts at 10 and ends at 11.15. ok thats utterly crap. ate lunch with A, S, H and M. den M teman-ed go mrt cos i wanted to go work. so then, at work, Joe called me. kacau jek! dier nye fren nak kenal2 with me. yeah he said uh the other day kwn die nak knal2. haiya. talked to his fren for a short while cos his fren said his fren saw me. ah smarang jek. K den.. met M aft work and we went buy stuffs for myself as well as my homestuff cause my mum kirim stuff uh. kinda had misunderstanding with A but everythings alright. OK then.

im going off now. gotta study for CRN test and gotta burn the midnite oil cos i have yet to do my RESUME!! shit.

2008-06-02T13:13:00.004+08:00

today's OFC test was ok. i screwed it up. i fogot the lines. hais. well whatever. i finally managed to snap a foto of me and ___. hahakz. finally! so, we went to eastpt to eat kfc cos ___ was there too eating with frens. so kiter kecoh, as always. and after eating cheese fries, i vomitted (whats new?). rabak nye. ___ tgk aku muntah also dier wanna muntah. and smpai the sink choke (however its spelled) siak. eee. geli.. den pt meja makan also i vomit. dorng smue help me. i muntah at plastic. haiz. just whats wrong with me? dorng ckp im lacking in vitamin in my body. probably?? thnks to ____, ____ and ____ for sending me home. I owe u 3. thnks and sorry for being sucha troublesome gal =(.

time check. 1.17pm.

i have sch til 5pm. but i called my teachers and told em alrd.
im sleeping now. bye people =(
i wanna get well soon.

2008-06-01T20:31:00.004+08:00

2nd post for the. today is so boring. sorry for not joining u guys today to celeb nad's bdae. we'll go sheesha okay soon. nx week. i love ya'll. probably it'll be my treat? i hope if i got the money.

i'll be going to night safari soon. perhaps soon. yeah. . xcited kepe aku.. cnfrm kecoh. binatang tgk kiter terus tido kot? hahaha. mum's like duing my esprit watch. she's xtending the metal parts cos she own that watch now. yup yup i gave it to her that watch. so she besarkan cos her wrist fat! hahaha. so i'll be using a diff watch now.well, sometimes u have to learn to let go. right? =). my babe's studying so i shall not disturb and let my babe concentrate. its been a tough week for myself as well as babe. I love you babe. i honestly do. MUacks. HAHAHA.

Life's great. Life's too short to look back. ive seen it all. feel it all. eat my dust kay. ive been vomitting these past few days and it really concerns me. my babe said that maybe im pregnant? pala hotak kau! i came my menses alrd kay which ended less den a week ago. and furthermore, i dont do stuffs =p. tmr's my roleplay and im sure to do well for it. insyaallah. was chatting with MAS and yeah, told her everything bout what happened in my life and all. we chatted abt fiq too. as in SHAFIQ. haiya. are guys so unpredictable? i guess so.

plan nak g pulau ubin. I hope jadi eh.. kiter g ngn diff2 elements. rocker, minah, mat, rilek. HAHAHA. sial lah.. i hope its a fun outing. OKay lah. im off. too tired.

RMMBR PEOPLE, NEVER LOOK BACK CAUSE IF U DO, U'RE IN FOR JEALOUSLY, JUST LIKE I DID. its a big mistake.

2008-06-01T08:57:00.008+08:00

Three Reasons to Leave Your Lover
05/30/08 9:35 AM

filed under: Love

Love yourself and leave HIM the minute these three deal breakers come into play.

#1 Leave him when he is abusive, physically or verbally!

#2 Leave when he is controlling. Never forget that you are your own woman.

#3 Leave him when you have evidence that he is cheating. But be careful, ladies, suspicion won't cut it and no snooping allowed!.

got this from tyrashow.com

Anw Fikri, if u reading this, i just want you to know that.. should i even accept ur request of adding me to your msn contacts? i dun think i shuld, right?? i mean, lets face it. i wanted to talk things out, yea, but u seem so desperate. It freaks the hell out of me. Life's great so far. Why do you have to come back? Now, the request is still pending. i'll leave it as it is, until you give me 3 good reason why i should add u to my msn. And yeah, y now den u add me at ur msn? Oh dah tkde pmpan lagi nak add so im ur last resort? chet. whatever. JUst tag at my Tagboard the 3 reasons. BYe fikri

The quest was fun in a way that me and gfs we lost til tekka??!!! wtf??? hahahaha. ok la. i had fun afterall. i was suppose to meet "A" but i cancelled it cause it was a last minute plan that "B's meeting me. so sorryyyyyyyyyy!!! I cant help but keep having last min changes ah. hahahaaa. so yeah.. "C" keeps calling me and i swear i got annoyed cause he wants to meet me? i noe lah its SATURDAY and its suppose to be our day but hey, i thought we broke up?? and i thought i made it clear?? are u meeting me to use me?? to use me for smtg u ache for??? sorry. im not a bitch. i have my rules. ok forget abt that person there. then i met "B". went to escape theme park and we practically spent the whole day there!! for like, 5 hours i suppose?? ard 1hr in escape, "D" and "E" came so the four of us were together. it was so hilarious. "D" actuali made me, "B" and "E" laughed so badd... hehhehhh. dier takot of heights. i vomitted again, and luckily "E" was there. i dunt know just whats wrong with me.so yeah.. and the pirate thingy. we sat and we got 2 free rides cause it was an incomplete ride as theres this fam stop twice. babi. den this couple in front of us quite kecoh and yeah, smue ktawe lor tgk muke "D". hehhh. den we go makan at MCdonalds and i lepak fer a while and reached home at 10+pm. whoa. i went out of the hse at 7+am ystd and came back 10+. more den 12 hrs klua. kay lah.. today im gonna rest. till here then. cHao.

2008-05-30T19:31:00.006+08:00

it has always been you, my brother.

like the saying goes...

never make someone a priority when they only make you an option.

therefore, im afraid. of losing you

yesterday was kinda a bad day. really. my head hurts. sch was 8-12. but it ended ard 9.30am. dont ask why. lazy to elaborate. so i didnt feel well and didnt even manage to finish up my plate of mee and yeah, i vomit. it was horrible. sakit2 still went to work which i regretted. went to play pool at night and im so happy cause i won but itu pon main tipu. reached home late ard 10+ ystd, and noone was home. so i watched ANTM while smsing Matin abt syidah. im so confused la pasal dorng dua nie kan.. haizzzz.!!! dorng nye hubungan, aku yg pening.

conclusion: i love yesterday. I LOVE YESTERDAY DAMMIT!!(xcluding vomitting)

today.. hmm.. nuthing much happened. today's the last day i can collect my prize from mediacorp and yeah, abang sent me. nice abang. my 1st bro. he sent me and then i teman him go bendemeer cos he cuztomise his seat and yeah, i helped him choose the colour and its nice la siol. i gave him ideas and he followed. see, great mind think alike. otw and nak balek, ader accident. abg forced me to rmmbr the plate num cos he wanna buy TOTO. fuck. and so he did lah.. den yah, dats bout it. and faiz was being soooooooooooooooooooo nice to help me do my project at sch library. cause that fucking person peh lambat kan.. smpai MLC (sum computer room at sch) pn dah tutop. ok actuali MLC nari mmg tutop. HAhaz. so at library, me and anonymous masuk frenster each other and anonymous mengumpat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha. cikopek smue klua. lepak pe. ok den.. dats bout it ah!! k chao! i gotta get well soon!!

BESOK IS "THE QUEST" thingy!!!! xcited at the same time tired

2008-05-28T20:22:00.003+08:00

Said there'd be no going back
Promised myself I'd never be that sad
Maybe that's why you've come along
To show me, it's not always bad

Coz I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so

It's true I've become a skeptic
How many couples really love
Just wish I had a crystal ball
To show me, if it's worth it all

Coz I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
Yeah I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so

And I've got to be sure
Coz it's been so long
And I cannot take the pain again
If it all goes wrong

Coz I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
Yeah I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so

I want you so much
I need you so much
I want you so much
I need you so much
[believe me my love
believe me my love]

i love this song by jem, falling for you. yeah.. its more den just a song. today i didnt go to sch. so lethargic. i wanna faint. and yeah. guess what. i only had a slice of pizza for today's meal. cause i didnt have any appetite since last few days. ystd when i bought ol chunkie, i oni ate 1 over 100 of the epok-epok. i dunoe. am i suffering from anything? hope not. after went to poly, i went to work. and yeah. had to accompany chris to attend some meeting at a company. ergg. its so tiring. im now missing ____. so much. i hope u feeling the same too. <3

[b]matin[/b] says:
babi is okay?
[b]matin[/b] says:
how would u feel if i call u babi
[b]matin[/b] says:
?
[b]matin[/b] says:
not only pengotor
[b]matin[/b] says:
but tk halal
[b]matin[/b] says:
memalukan

syidah if u reading this, let me tell you, your bf has a good sense of humour. hahaha. sial lah..

2008-05-27T23:25:00.001+08:00

Im high on "drugs" thnks to alibhai. yeah. ehhee. aini said its a disease. contagious disease. oh well. today was pretty alright. the problem with me today is just that i shivered too hard and my body's not giving me any good signs. hais. i enjoyed my day today. i hope theres another day like today. May god bless me.

2008-05-25T12:47:00.004+08:00

THE DAY U LAID UR HANDS ON MY FACE WAS THE MOMENT I MADE A PROMISE TO HATE YOU FOREVER.. TRUST ME. THERE'LL BE NO TURNING BACK.. & IM NOT REGRETTING IT EITHER.

I'll be praying every step along the way
& the thought of you leaving my life, broke me down in tears. i took granted of all the love you gave to me.

im deleting every memories of u, pic and post abt u, one by one. i hope im strong to face this battle. Insyaallah. Amin.

im so bored right now. Falique ajak lepak. Ali imran pun. might be meeting ali later petang kalau tak hujan since dh lame tk catch up ngn dier.. k then. tmr update again! chao!

2008-05-24T22:03:00.002+08:00

Maybe this decision was a mistake right from the start. Met ____. everything was fine til we went to cyber cafe and ____ flared up. from there, things got out of hand. i started making scenes in public and i admit, that ___ had to go along with the flow. Padan muker dier kene byr 16 bux for ERP cause cashcard tkde value. ader duit tak? LOL. hmpff. we argued big at siti's block there, and i threw _____'s things from his bag. just cause i wanted to take MY STUFF. (jgn tktau malu k its yours). perhaps mum was right. i got too many lucifers in my body. but wth right. so then _____ slapped me twice on my face. thats so W.O.W. i got slapped. Twice. Hard. On my cheek. but i dun care. ____'s being suchan ass by calling my parents. fine.. but i didnt know.. why when my parents and me we abt to go from the place, my heart was shattered to see ____ sitting down beside his bike and was fixing his helmet cause i kicked it and im truely sori for that. suddenly my heart was like, filled with pitifulness. i was crying. i swear to god that when my dad u-turned to sent me home, i was crying harder cause i was feeling remorseful. til now. but i hope things will be okay now. everything hass ended. AMIN. take care, ____. Sory for what ive said and done. After the lecture from my parents, i sat and think. Cause my mum told me to. and i did. i only cried harder. since im alone at home now, i might as well cry my heart out. After much crying and argueing, im feeling hungry. hehh. I regretted much what i did and said to ____. what i said to ___ everything was so untrue. Maybe yes i do look like an asshole bitch/prostitute/whore/slut (cause thats what ___ always label me as), going out with other guys, my heart will always be with him. cause i know by the end of the day, its him i run to for a shoulder to cry on. Perhaps im not good at expressing my feelings?? i suppose so. OK then. Im super hungry.

TIME CHECK:
10.15pm.

ok im going out now to.. somewhere and also buy some food for myself to eat. Take care and you people have a nice weekend. (cause mine is spoilt)
=]. Love you siti fatimah for being there for me and advicing me to eat choco, cause im feeling better now.

2008-05-23T13:47:00.012+08:00

my gals made me feel better after ystd's mishap. sch was alright today but just a lil restless. fik msged me while im in class. ok no. we were just sambung our sms where we stopped ystd. bla3 and then wanted to go work but my body cant take it. im too tired already. so i decided to go home then. so many things happen recently but u think i gv a damn? hell noooooo .if u think i do, ur wrong. took 31 to interc with aini shefah and daya. i was walking at interc with em and say some kinda familiar face uh. i smiled at that guy ar.. (altho i wasnt sure if dats the prsn i noe. cause he was looking at me too! we had eye contact. LOL). and he smiled back. and yea, he panggil me and my girls. betul lah tu dier. its THAQIF. our secondary sch mate. he left our sch when he's in sec 2 cause he shifted house and now he's in ITE tamp. abeh kan, dier suro kiter amek number dier. and sms dier num kiter. eleh. no way man. aini and shefah took. but as for me, i didnt. he was asking for my num and aini told him, that i will never giv away my number. ahaha.. ok lah since he's my sec sch mate right, i gave and he smsed me. sms stakat suro save num dier. haha. he rmmbred my name!!! but aini's and shefah's name, he didnt. he said aini's FARHANA and shefah's HAJAR. mampus. itu smue org lain seh.. hahahazzz. ok practically im so happy today. AND NOT FORGETTING, I board the same bus with din to sch. hahaha!!! ok ok. im so xcited for THE QUEST this 31st may. cause i noe whats in for the giftpack. i went to the nebo webby. smangat ehk. hahahh. fik is working as the marshall i guess. wellll.... i so cant wait ay.

2008-05-05T18:36:00.009+08:00

CRN class was B O R I N G!! thus, dats what u get from students like us. well, i pranked aini just now.. and in the end, i got pranked myself. stupid... hahaha. smth funny happen ah in sch.. u noe i noe ah nuraini jalani! OFC lesson was cut 2 1 hrs only and had lunch for 2 hours. im so well known antara din's fren. thnks to? DIN himself and NURAINI BITCH! haha. u noe i noe ah aini. hate you. yes din aku hotstuff like how u claimed!

i need to cut down on my vulgarities man. its so not sweet of me to say all those words especially if people hears me saying that? well. dats just me. heee. my bf's sick again. i miss him, pretty much. altho we kinda having a fight now. well. LOL. ok so random. omg. hehhh. ok this post is so dead. IM OFF!

2008-05-04T19:13:00.011+08:00

bro's class 2 bike tayar pancet so terpakse naik moto yg tak seberapa nie.

i love you nuraini. so much

life has been awesome for the past days i didnt update. was too busy enjoying that i didnt have the time to update. i just got back from watching superhero movie

kat werk, i was with asmah and farah.. dorng gerek kaki.. so outgoing.. dey dun mind befriending with a 18 yrs old gal like me altho they are 20+ already. they blanje me guava and bubble tea cos dorng left me at the
office for 1 hr!!! i was alone!! haha dorng g mane tah. den while dey were gone, i was listening to 98.7fm. den guess what. I WON AGAIN LA SIOL!! $150 VOUCHER MEDI AND PEDICURE. wow!!! luck is on my side. hahaha. gonna share it with my babes!.

3rd may:

kt cgh, i was walking den this mamat stopped me.

mamat: dh kul brape?
me: 10.25 ah
mamat: oh nie namer siape?
me: radhyah.
mamat: oh da kawin eh?
me: uh? tk ah
mamat: skola mane?
me: ite simei
mamat: eh samer ah. leh jadi adek angkat?
siol aku tk knal kau nak aku jadi adek angkat kepe. tk angkat siol aku!
me: ughhh. eh dh lambat ah nak g jumpe matair nie.
mamat: jap eh. i amek pen.
me: ah
mamat: ape hp num?
me: err.
i gave him my mom's 2nd line. omg. despo.

2008-04-29T15:21:00.004+08:00

it was sooooooo hard to wake up this morning. oh shits. time table dah rabak. tues wed and thurs start at 8am! walauey. and what made it worst is, tmr im having swimming lessons. CRAP.. well, nothing much happened today in school. and i didnt eat for lunch. not so hungry. but aini's nasi ayam thousand island nice.

and siti babe, its okay for what happened ystd. i totally understand what ya going thru. anw kan, from now i can go werk thurs, fri and sat! cos thurs and fri i nye sch smpai 12 je. i noe its nice to see me and fik's pic together being happy . ya im happy tooooooooooooooo actualy. meet up soon babe.! i miss you as much as working with you too!

2008-04-27T22:30:00.010+08:00

my little boy.

singapore's red-light district

the fuck cum pig's pose was specially for aini cos she said fik buncit. ah amek kau aini. LOL

fierce or what..

swear to god today and yesterday was so tiring for both me and my babe. he's bike broke down ystd and after 1hr +++ of trying hard, we still cudnt manage to fix it. and it was 9+ almost 10. omg or what. so we took cab to my place and eat nasi ayam cos my mom invited him over as she cooked quite alot. it was more tiring for fikri cause he met he's fren and tried to do his bike til 4+am and met me at 1pm today. he didnt have enough rest.

so what happened today was...

1pm: met fikri and proceed to he's KR bike. cause we went out using fitri cum fikri's DRZ bike. so den stil cudnt start so we started searching for a nearby motocycle shop. and managed to find one. GOOD AND CHEAP. so fikri had to push his bike from the location to the bike shop with kinda took him 20 mins just to push from there to the bike shop. bla3 den all the shit ended at 4.

4pm: went to office and took my thumbdrive that i left behind. as simple as that.

4.15pm: proceed to far east and slack for 10 mins and went town and rounding. 2 rounds summore. and fikri asshole he go and do the pop sound at cntr of orchard road. loud seh. i laughed. and its obvious its us. people noe.

6pm: mountbatten's kfc and ate. was so fullllllll!!!

7pm: went back to fikri's plc and return fitri the bike key and we both took cab to changi's bus stop. and took bus number 2 to the bike KR shop where he got it repaired. kinda funny tho in the bus we laughed so badly

. haha

9pm: reached the bike shop and proceeded home and yeah, he naik my hse and slack til 10. dats abt it!

2008-04-25T18:48:00.005+08:00

eh see that bitch behind duing what.! haha.=p back to square one, a skul gal.

APE JE MY MOM! WTF! SHE ASK WHT TIME I FINISH SCH TDY AND I SAID 10.30 AND SHE SAID ASL SIANG N I SAY AH CIKGU TK DTG AND SHE SAY "SUKER2 JE BALEK" EH SHE STUPID OR WHAT!!!!!!!!!!! MMG BOLEH BALEK PE CIKGU TK DTG. eEH SIAK AH. SOMEONE TALK SENSE TO HER!!!! ANNOYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today is so exhausting! i think it was a waste of time cuming to school today. OFC lesson is cancelled again sey. my BPF lesson was supposed to be 2 hrs but cikgu cumer aja 1 n a half hr je. so like what, attend skul at 9 and 10.30 go home. merepek or what.. so i was late meeting my gfs (as usual) and went to sch. talking abt some craps. and in class. BPF was sooooooooooooooo boring!! me and aini (my bitch partner) vandalised the table due to boredom. i dunoe why she keeps picking on me? ok well. i keep picking on her. LOL. she copied my work! pemalas. and yeah, BPF is smth like maths so i did it fast and accurate. maklum budak pandai maths tapi o level fail. haha!okokok. wanted to eat at the cafe after sch since we finish early but the BITCH tanak!! so sengket !! haha. sorie gal. den we walked to the bus stop. me, bitch and shefah. thus, in the bus, this bitch nak makan FC . kanina. kat skola tanak makan siak. well, dey followed me top up ma ezlink den i went home alone. yeah. dorng teman smpai railing 72. den dh balek smue, i siap2 go work. ugh tiring gilerrrrrr. dlm bus 8 i slept sia.. 1st time i m so tired. and bus pulak sejuk.! went werk sorng den balek also sorng. at werk mcm nak nanges. so stressed up! kene buat JLL la ADM la argg.

2008-04-24T16:13:00.011+08:00

my bro and lil sis.

today i was really hoping to meet someone after school but least i xpected that it'd turn out as a dissappointment. but its okay.. sch sucks. ugh.

9-10pm.: had my customer relations (CRN) class. and yeah, bored as always. i sat at the back with aini and all, but me and aini keep talking and talking and talking. and i was smsing that someone too. he was using his fren's fone tho. so cudnt sms much and he wasnt intrested in smsing me! like mother fucking hell.

10-12pm: supposing i have my OFC lesson but its cancelled. then, 10-11am had break.

11-1pm: OSA. damn bored. rin's comp broke down so she shared with me and we started talking and talking and talking. talked abt our classmates (kinda like gossip a lil), abt bfs, relationships, sch, work and all. yeah..

1pm: went straight home which i was xpecting someone to fetch me but.... yeah. didnt happen so. ALRIGHT! iTS ALRIGHT! =). went to interc with my babes and reached home ard 1+ nearly to two. den i slept til 3+. sch wasnt so tiring but im not sure of why im so tired. and things hasnt been going smooth lately. well, wtf ah right. tot of going work but im so tired la. so lethargic.

anw, my fren's mum just passing the way. so sad right. im feeling sad too. ni lah lumrah hidup. hope everythings gonna be fine for my fren.

aini asked me this stupid qn
"so how do you find the guys in our sch? hot tak?"
eeeeeerrrrrrrrr.
sorry guys but u all are not too hot for my standard. HA.HA.
saw quite alot of ppl today.
saw fadz at cafe and he talked to me abt kicking bikes (LOL)
saw wan at the lift and he was looking so tired.
i didnt expect eh quite a num of people i noe is in the same sch as me.
EVEN THE LONG LOST FRENS!
like qua, fath. a super WOW. reunion or what!

2008-04-23T17:02:00.006+08:00

pls god forgive for what he did cause i know any man would have done just the same.

today = total laziness and moodless for school.

what happened ystd was a total scare for me. shall not elaborate but yeah, i feel like its the world against me. when i wanted to mit shefah and aini at interc just now, i was kinda awkward taking the bus to interc cause it feels like as tho people are saying "eh nie pmpan yg smlm kene tarik smue ngn laki smlm kt TM". u noe, am i paranoid or what? today's lesson is so boring. i didnt have the mood to go sch. wanted to skip sch but yeah, aini motivated me. aini is the biggest bitch in my class. HEHHZzz. sorry babe.

1st lesson: PE. the teacher is so cool. she's miss emily. pretty. and yeah, next week, my PE lesson will be in the swimming pool with other 3 classes. sial lah.. malu or what. for those who dunoe howta swim, gotta go to 10 COMPULSORY SWIMMING LESSON. crazy eh. i nye hair tkle kene chlorine seh.. ughh.

9-10am had talk at auditorium.

10+++ - 11.45am: Office Software Application (OSA) class. and it was draggy. seriously. altho the teacher, mdm sapiah, was fun. but tha thought of what happened ystd stil ran thru my mind and im distracted by it..

11.45am: me and aini ran down quickly that joanne thought we are running towards the cafe to "chop" tempat. LOL. no la pls eh not so kiasu. my shoe the velcro (however it is) terbukak so gotta go Co-OP and buy super glue. den me and aini ate chicken chop pasta. sedap.

1pm: lifeskills lesson (LLA). BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!! 2.5hrs of the lesson. its not that boring ah. but the projector spoilt and we cant watch videos so that makes it boring. i slept in class. and aini woke me up and aini said i was like high on drugs. cause i kinda talk nonsense and yeah,. i made a sound when i was sleeping! LOL. i realised tt and aini too. haha!!! mampos.

3.30pm: end of sch and went home straight.

today is a forced-to-go-sch situation. nisa told me this.

nisa: radhyah, nak tanye sikit ah.
me: what?
nisa: ur muke mcm rozalina (the singapore actress, jai's wife)
me: huh, NO!
nisa: sedare jauh ke? jauh jauh ke??
me: no. tk kenal pon se.
nisa: tapi ur face mcm dier. dulu when ur mom pregnant dier ader suke si roza ke, smpai nak anak die muke cam gitu? ok aku merepek.
me, nisa, reen, aini: laugh

me look like roza? omg. nisa isnt the only one yg ckp my face cam roza. my nenek and aini also say. omg. im so not pretty, then. roza lawa mmg lawa tpi tgk muke dier meluat. so, muke aku nie meluat eh dipandang? LOL. wdv.

i wont be logging in frenster and will only be blogging so, YEAH! got scolding from dad and mum. nak tau ape my dad cakap?

dad: MCM MANE NIE, NAK ADER BOIPREN TAPI NAK ADER LAKI LAIN? ADER LA MARUAH SIKIT KAU TU PEREMPUAN. U CHOSE LA YAN. MAKE A CHOICE. KAU FIKIR LELAKI TKDE PRASAAN EH?

mum: KAU JGN MAIN2 API. NANTI LELAKI BUAT PERUT KAU BONCIT BARU TAU. SELISIH. ESH. LELAKI NIE SUKE BALAS DENDAM.

i was like, ah, ah, ah.. hahahaha!!! ye kan aje lah!

The very thought of you, leaving my life
Broke me down in tears
I took for granted all the love that you gave to me
I know that's what I feared

Don't go away
Every heart beat
Every moment
Everything I see is you

Please forgive me
I'm so sorry
don't say we're through

boy I need you, to be by my side
boy I need you, to open up my eyes
Cause without you, where would I be
Yes I need you
Come back to me

A kiss is not a kiss
Without your lips kissing mine
You bring me paradise
I can't live if you took your love
Away from me
Without you I would die

Every second
Every minute
Every time I close my eyes
I could feel you
So I want you
To stay in my life

2008-04-19T22:45:00.006+08:00

popeyes?? siak ah. KFC BETTER LA!
i love my hair.

today, i spent the whole saturday at the office doing my work. impressive ay. haha. siti was there too. well, nuthing much to blog abt today. just that, I SPENT THE WHOLE SAT AT THE OFFICE. i stil cnt get over it. i spent my saturday in the office. haha!! rajin siak. tmr im going out taking passport foto and might be watching "the hottie and the nottie". hopefully. juggling work and sch sucks ay.ok lah. till here people.

2008-04-18T21:06:00.001+08:00

Sebelum ku kenali mu hidupku cukup ngan suka duka
Tak penah ku sangka semuanya akan berubah
Dikau bagaikan cahaya bagi jiwaku ini
Tak mungkin ku lupakan kata mu kan sentiasa disisi
Bagaikan satu kisah cinta kita berdua kemana asyik berpegangan tangan

Orang lain dilupakan
Apa terjadi diriku ni masih tertekan
hati dilukai setelah janji ditunaikan
Tiap kali ku fikir tiada guna bersedih
Rakan-rakan katakan buang masa ku cintai
Dikau punca pedihku tiada baik darimu tiada langsung yang benar dlm ungkapan bibirmu

Kenapa harusku bercinta
Kenapa ku begini
Kenapa harus ku tahu semua
Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa aku diperbodohkan kasih…

Tak mungkin ku lupa
Kali pertama bersua tak sangka
dikau kan menjadi pedih yang di kan
dalami jiwa..oww
Siang malam termenung sedih memakan hati
Tak pernah ku ingat ku boleh dilukai begini
Namun ku cekal hatiku tuk melupakan mu ku tahu bukan begitu,Come on!
malas ku nak rayu,
buang tenagaku,
kau takkan mendengarku [sudahlah]
Selamat tinggal oh kasih
Janganlah iri hati
hidup baru kan mula bila terbitnya mentari

Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
Kenapa harus ku merayu
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa harus ku dikecewakan..kasihh…oohhhhhh

Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
Kenapa harus ku merayu
Kenapa ku bercinta
Kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu

Sekian lama telah ku simpan rasa ini dihati
Baru kini ku berani tuk mengatakan oh gadis
Dikau punca segala kepedihan di hatiku
Tak ingin lagi ku lihat wajah mu di hadapan

Sekian lama telah ku simpan rasa ini dihati
Baru kini ku berani tuk mengatakan oh gadis
Dikau punca segala kepedihan di hatiku
Tak ingin lagi ku lihat wajah mu di hadapan ku

Sayang…telah kau mempermainkan hatiku
Telah ku buatkan segalanya..telah ku janjikan segalanya
Namun kau..telah memperdayakan ku
Takkan ku merayu sayang…tak ingin aku membuat mcm ini lagi

I just cant get witchu rite now

Kenapa harus ku merayu
Uh..kenapa harus ku bercinta..
Yeahh…pergilahh sayang…[kenapa]

thnks to diana i finally found this old song back. its KENAPA by SHAZZY FEAT VE. understand me fikri, and everything;'s gonna be alright. ILU <3

2008-04-17T21:01:00.004+08:00

im sorry aini i beat you to this video. and u guys have to check this out. its damn hilarious!

school's preety alright for me. today's school was so lepak. had my sch from 9-10 for my CNR, 10-12 for my OFC and break from 12-1 and OSA from 1-2. but my CNR lesson was cut cut cut til 9.30 ONLY. and had xtra 30 mins. den my OFC was cut cut cut til 10.30. so had my lunch from 10.30 til 1. how great. and then had OSA. ice breaking session. well, im so stresses up abt fikri ay. hes been ACCUSING and i realli mean ACCUSING me of going to geylng pangkeng with my EX, FIRDAUS. we both are innocent party. ok maybe not both, BUT JUST ME. i dont get fikri. people have been saying we wont make it and i really think so i cud change and prove tat theyr wrong but im sorry, i cant. i dun understand him altho weve been together for like what, 2 yrs +! someone told me this.

quantity is not important. quality is the most important in a rship.

means.

QUANTITY (the time being together be it 1 yr or 10 years) is NOT important but the QUALITY (the feeling, the understanding, the love) is MUCH MUCH MUCH more important.

but its hard to let go of him now that we'r almost 3 yrs. so many things ive done for him and vice versa. i miss US. probably it was my fault. but hey, hes such a .. ERGH!

tmr i aint going to sch. lesson boring. in fact no lesson. im so over this.

2008-04-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

honestly 1st day of school WASNT great at all. stupid orientation, talks, and classmates (xcluding aini shefah and siti, of kos) i honestly hate this girl in my class whom used to be my schmate too and shes super nosiy. meluat lah.. and im trying this out for 2 weeks. if not, i'll jst quit and taking private. ITS DECIDED!

2008-04-13T10:50:00.003+08:00

"im bac and kinda tired. my kwn replace me and anw thns for the gift. betul ke u pkai duet u seh, tk berat hati ke kluakan duet smue? me nga download game . tadi i kal tpi u da tdo ke u avoid i. ntah la n sori i think i found my true luv alrd all thnx 2 u! heh js kiddin. kol me when da wake up. muacks."

dats what fikri sent me at my hp when i woke up this mning. YES i swear the presies i bought it with my own money. tkde share2 nye ngn siape2. and what he meant by he found he's true love is, means kan i bought fer him PSP so dats he's true luv la cos hes been wanting a PSP for a long time. and finally he got it. eh sial lah sweet or what sia aku beli kan dier PSP for bdae present! and he was like saying to me this ystd.

fik: asal u kasi i 2 present?
me: pasal u special.

DEN WE SMILE

hehehh. i told him, the body shop perfume jgn kasi sesiape pakai.. cos cnfrm nnti cpt habes seh.. and its expensive pulak tu!!! i spent ard 400 just on fik's bdae. just to make it happen. just to make him feel special. i hope he loves he psp. but sorry babe. cudnt get u the colour u wanted. ERggh. wellllll, TMR SCH! siak. and ive yet to ketat kan my sch skirt. haiya... well......... im going to do it.. soon.. ptg.. so, yeah.. happy 22nd birthday again my love!!

2008-04-12T21:09:00.008+08:00

perhaps mine was the best n Expensive bdae gift he had this yr.

PSP and BODY SHOP'S PERFUME
we dont belong at pizzahut. we belong to swensens.

this walkway is full of monkeys!!! so GELI

happy birthday sweets. hope every moment spent with me was worthwhile and wonderful. which i noe is not. well, misses.

today fikri's soul suddenly so kind to buy me baju from ZARA. ugh. and i bought myself a shampoo for rebonding.

2008-04-10T22:35:00.006+08:00

eyebrow trimming.
babygirl and her "makcik" sunglasses at mango

the pampering my hair session

the treatment room

got foot reflexology summore! how worth is my 170 spent! haha

org tgh geram tu smpai asap smue klua dari kpale..!!
babygirl looks like era fazira ngh make up for cinta cholestrol! haha! cos she looks chubby here

today i got my pay. 740. but left with 218 ajer. siak kan.. hahaha. yalah.. today went for rebonding (170 bux). and finally i bought for fikri psp (unrevealed). hehehe. den i go shopping at ZARA beli baju dier lawa.. (16.90) and kasut skola black colour at topshop (43 bux). im so happy today. me and babygirl shopped like hell. and yeah, took pics while rebonding. when i rebond, she highlight. hehehe. den she call me MISS J. ARHH. in the mrt she said.

"bye jong jong." alamak.. hahaha!! tkpe siti. rebond this time round for 170 is worth my money sey. heheheeeee.

ystd, meet babygirl and faeza after werk. we all makan at srisun when we saw wan, mas and dyla. me faeza and ct was at srisun too. well nth much.

im so happy tt i bought for fik psp already for his bdae.

2008-04-06T21:14:00.004+08:00

Happy 22nd, love. ur turning 22 in 6 more days, 12 april. you're sure to see lots of surprises from me.

oh yes. i might be wearing braces too, soon. only fik saw the "jongang"ness in my teeth. i told him.

me: i nak pakai braces tau.

fik: i tau asal.

me: asal? (cnfrm u tktau asal la so jgn mcm phm)

fik: sebab gigi u jongang kan! i tau

me: mcm mane u tau i nak kai braces sal gigi i jongang?!

fik: i tau ah. i prasan seh. eeee, jongang.

me: ah2 seh you. i pun dah lamer seh prasan. i think its time i pakai braces =(

then he took pics of me smiling from the side view to prove me tt its jongang. hais. what a life. braces.

2008-04-05T21:24:00.004+08:00

was browsing thru my foto folders so i decided to post some old pics.

2008-04-04T10:24:00.005+08:00

Ystd met fikri. FInally, after 1 wk+ of not meeting him. waited for him like a buah tk jatuh at paya lebar mrt station for 1 hr. cos hujan and crampy seh. den at werk, me and nadia follow chris go JLL and i lost my wallet kat JLL carik high and low. mcm nak nanges seh.. IC, neoprint, Ezlink. OMG. den one of tha worker kat JLL found it. alhamdulillah. hehehe. den balek chris anta g paya lebar and dats when i waited for fik 1 hr loh. tiring ayyyy. and sumone shocked me ystd seh.. i almost cried seh. ok syidah noes why.. HAha. den i go letak ma cheque kt the box. stupid. dad ckp leh dpt on the spot siak. hais. den mit syidah. now im sleepy. took pics but yah.. upload ltr. toodles.

2008-03-31T19:24:00.007+08:00

my chinese cuzzin. i asked him to sent me his foto. this was like, ages ago. he's effing cute now. haha!

today was my last day of werk and its so much fun. kinda reunion tho. hahaha. had lunch tdy with ct, ida. beel msged me ystd tanye nak g lunch together tk since tdy's my last day. as in like, the whole ntuc income temp staff, lunch together, including the ones yg dh berhenti.. cos nari bynk org last day, including me. nvm ah.. i told em to go ahead.. den me ct and ida ate at long john. den ct makan so mcm org 10 tahun tk makan seh. hehehe. den mcm romantic gitu kiter smue makan dalam gelap cos LJS tak byr bill.. (siti ckp). and we all laugh se.. hehehe. den ida nak g ol chunkie den i ran to beel and tepuk blakang dier with my wallet. haha dier ckp aku pukul kuat and bdn dier sakit. LOL. the ol workmates pn masok.. best.. kt reception smue budk2 kiter.. finally kan, dpt amek gmbr ngn nazmi and beel. LOL.. haha. YAh and its sad tho. ok la.. I so gonna miss them. what sahrina said mcm touching.

"eh radhyah tc eh.. see u !!"

me: haha u too! happy werking. alah, lek ah. i stil got ur hp num pe

sahrina" yah.. hehe.. ok den. tc.!

Aww. sweet per.

2008-03-30T11:28:00.003+08:00

its sunday. and its so slowwwww. i slept at what, 4 am tadi, and woke up at 11+. so early seh! and im craving for burger ramli.. mum ajak go kubur but nolah, im gonna cut my hair.. so yeah.. nak tipis kan rmbt.. smlm dad nampak fik.. aiyyy. and i dunoe la what they toked abt. den smlm klua ngn abg naik moto dier bes sey. hehehe. dier kan matrempit .. i scared sey cos i pakai helmet full cutting phantom dier. hais. beh org tgk2. aii. den kat 800+ ader pasar malam, abg blanje burger ramli. den ngh tunggu burger, ader 2 budak kecik lelaki.. ard.. 4-6 years of age. abeh satu nie ckp wit me..

"makcik makcik, dier kater nanti dier dh besar dier nak kawin ngn makcik"

hehe! cute kepe..!!!! den u laughed seh.. den yg the other one lari2 malu2..
den the budak ckp lagi..

"makcik makcik, dier kater dier nak makan burger ngn makcik"

hehe.. mentel la 2 budak nie. kecik2 dh mentel. and ader ke dorng panggil aku makcik? WALAUEY. im nt tt old.

so i played pacman at abg raf's hp for 3 hours just to beat he's high score but stil, i didnt manage to. mcm tk ngntok gitu semalam.

2008-03-29T20:55:00.003+08:00

OK GUESS WHAT. SOMEONE ASKED ME OUT!! FINALLY. THANK GOD. TEMAN BELI MAKAN PON TEMAN BELI MAKAN LAH! so happy! and the prsn is my brother. HAHAHA!! siak. asalnye dpt klua kan. oh im going to selegie rd to bet on bola. cool pe. ok la bye .. nak siap. hehe

2008-03-29T14:27:00.003+08:00

as posted ystd, i went to town with my dear. got my esprit watch repaired cos the day b4, fik threw it from 4th floor 2 the ground floor. ah wtf kan. and i woke up today saw his msg saying if i dont want the watch, give it to him back. and my mom was like, "its yours what yan. he gave it to u". alah i dunoe lah.after going to hereen, me and babygirl went to cathay.. this guy was singing and damn typical malay siak suara.. den saw din.. AND A GIRL. hehehe. i took his breaded prawn. JUST ONE. not all. hehe. den went to wisma with babygirl.ok wells. reached home around 10+ and my legs were exhausted. aiii. i should pamper myself and get a good soak in the bathtub in my aunt's house today. cause its a saturday! and every sat my mom will go to my nenek/aunt's house. im so gonna follow and soak myself in. its aanother boring sat. nak klua, but with who? hais. boring boring. was otp tadi, and my mum politely interupted me. so i had to hang up. she said..

"skg kau dah tak ngn dier, hari2 la nampak muke kau kat ruma. kalau tak, jangan harap kau kat ruma".

hehe. my momma so bad!!! ok i love her tho. she talked abt me and fik.. bla3.. yesh.. i told her fik msged me pagi tadi and i cant b bothered to reply.. and mum laugh. apa sey? hehe. whatthehell. i think today im going out jap lor. really cant2 stay home at this condition. monday is my last day of werk. so it mashita, kartika, iskandar, vin, li ping, & sarah. awww. the office will b shorthanded den. hehehe! ok im gonna mandi2 and siap2 now.. looks like im going out alone. chaloz.~ have a nice weekend yall.

2008-03-28T22:06:00.006+08:00

holla and i just came back.. 10+. omg. tiring.. went making troubles ah with my dear at town!!! we were like tourist taking pics of paragon and all. funny se.. den we were like, one typical kiasu singaporeans standing in front of the mrt door. HAhaha. siak se. den we went to hereen and went to kdai jam, betol kan my esprit watch. see how i sayang tt watch. and yes, i hafta pay for the services =(. nvm la .. hais.. den, say din. and a gal. weewit. din ckp "tak sumpah dier kwn jek" haha. yela tu. so many things la happen. tmr update k. penat. nak sleep. ugh!

OH YA. I APPLIED FOR NURSING KT NANYANG POLY USING MY N LEVELS. YEY. HOPE DAPAT OKAY

2008-03-27T18:16:00.002+08:00

was expecting some surprises for my lunch and going home time from fikri but none came true. HA.HA. ida didnt come to werk. i tot i was gonna hav lunch ALONE. but my wonderwoman came to my rescue. SITI FATIMAH. hehehehe... went bazaar. kekek se.. we both kinda tripped due to the uneven platforms. den she bought charkueh (entah btol tk spelling). she nak byr 2 bux beh dier ingt receipt tu is 2 bux .. haha!! she g kluakan receipt. even the abg ketawe. haha. den i bought burger ramlee (or ramli). den we went bac and sat @ office. the pathetic part is, WE ATE AT THE STAIRCASE SIAK! pantry dh ramai org. pathetic. ali, iskandar, sahrina, mashita and sarah was der too but we didnt sit wit them. den dh gitu i wasnt feeling well la actuali. ok wtfpagi2 jek org dh kal2.. ok la.. fik dh kal2 cari gado.. so i wasnt in the mood and wanted to take half day but for fik's sake of psp for his bdae, i still managed to complete 1 full day. alhamdulillah. today, someone pranked call me. it aint funny .. haha. but i noe siape tu org. haha. den i prank call sumone.. and that prsn was like..so gullible. prcaye siak.. den dier ckp dier bz.. so ok lor. den dier kal balek.. tanye.."nie radhyah eh?" i said. "NO. im suhaila. sorry i think u got the wrong prsn" LOL. dier believed me. ok wtf kan. den.. yah.. its boring tt im going hm after werk. brrrrrrrrrrrrr.

2008-03-25T22:55:00.003+08:00

2 days of not updating.. ystd was damn tiring for me.. pas werk terus mit fik, smpai ruma dgn baju2 keje jugak tido.. heheeee. smlm ct start werk same building but diff level. Brr. finally kan! hehe.. tdy, yah.. didnt had lunch. beli bubble tea and the pearl tersendat at ma throat and i vomitted. masam siak!!!!!!! all the strawberry klua siak.. i was soooo... tired after vomitting. den all the mails came to my table. oh my gosh. nazmi tdy last day =(. he wantsa take pic with me but i was in a rush cos fik dh tunggu kt bwh.. alahai. k la. im off to bed nie. bsk i upload pics for tdy. chao chinnnna.

2008-03-22T22:30:00.006+08:00

okay i noe, my face so white, and my neck so tan. just shut up.

what so big deal of our 27th anni? 27 mths? so what????????????????????? nt as if my 27 yrs of marriage. fuck. he's good at spoiling my day. bravo for that. so this was how the story goes.

i didnt went out today, cause he's in camp and cant bk out til night. so i waited... and waited.. and waited... til i fell asleep.. and it was 8+ when he called and sais OK I MEET U OK. den suddenly. he said he hafta wait for his stopid encik to sampai camp. waited and waited til 9.45. fedup ah! den im effing mad ughhz. ahhhhh!!!!!!

2008-03-21T13:21:00.000+08:00

"star wi/o make up" HAHAHA
concentrating on the flinstone show.

yst i went out the whole day! like gerek kan.. klua ngn fik.. but as usual.. he spoilt the day.. ZzzZz. we 1st went to my sch and bought uni and bynk size tkde and it kinda bore me. den pastu we balek my house letak baju beh lek2 jap.. den proceed to andrew road, mediacorp main reception to collect my giftpack and wow.. i got 5 cds for just 30 cents of sms. good eh. hehe.. den pas g andrew road, we went to.. ingtkan nak g junction 8 tapi we went to AMK hub instead. makan mcdonalds.. den we watch step up 2 .. gerek pe.. worth my 10 bux! cool la kan the dance steps. pas tgk wyng, we chill kat amk hub minum bubble tea and we mkn ol chunkie. pastu went to... kallang leisure park. as usual, main arcade kan.. hehe beh yeah.. tdi fik came over to my hse, lepak cos he gotta bk in by 7. SObx. cnt go out with him so decided to just hang ard my house. my mum suro makan nasi abes kan and me and fik abeskan ayam! ahaha. den he played with my sis. and my bro smoke with him so yeah.. what a lovely family.. *vomits*

2008-03-20T11:53:00.000+08:00

I'LL LOVE THE GUY WHO WILL SING ME "WHEN U LOOK ME IN THE EYES" BY JONAS BROTHERS. SERIOUSLY. THEN, IM IN LOVE. SO, SING FOR ME!

ARGH! pls... let me go.. ='(! today i didnt go werk.. amek off... and my office keep calling me tanye2 bende werk. see la, even im not in de office ppl asking me.. haha.. siti call me too. eh tt cute gurl ah. haha.. ya tt cute gurl ah..haha.. so miting fik at 1.. he baru kal aku ckp janji kul 1 tpi tgk je lah eh.. haha.. nak g skul, buy uni cepat2, den balek letak baju, den klua! whee!!!!! daddy transering me money to ma bank akaun.. 100+. gerek pe papa aku!~ =D. ok lah. im sooooooooooooooooooo tired. ugh. mlm update lagik kayz.

2008-03-19T22:56:00.001+08:00

this is ALI. (workmate)
iskhandar, shaik, nabeel. (workmates)

stupid uncomfo office wear. spare me!

fik bastard naikkan slua dier.

cute or what si dier nie..

this sucks man. ive been busy at work ( and i really mean BUSY), sekejap2 "radhyah radhyah" sini, "radhyah radhyah" saner. kerjer aku sendiri tk habes. and thnks to khairul kan, me, yi ping and vin gotta REARRAGE the WAC(s) and count back EVERYTHING! AHHH! so fucking stressed up. then the makciks kejap2 "girl2 you tolong buat nie". "adek2 u tolong buat tu" AHHHH! give me a break! ='(! tmr's my last day of work. 20th march. but just when i thought i could relax, i betta erase tt off. cause i extend my contract til end of march. ahh. and tmr amek off. nak kene p skul and beli uniform. so im having a long holiday =D, kinda.~ i cudnt make up my mind to either continue my cntract til end of march or just follow the contract n end tmr til fik said "u kalau keje 1 more week u dpt 250. wasted kan kalau u tk werk. extend lah". so, i decided to. i told auntie zara, she said.. (ok she's the MOST GARANG CUM GEREK SUPERVISOR")

auntie: norlia dh tanye u kan u nak xtend ke tak abeh asal tanak ckp?
me: i tk terfikir. i extend til march but tmr i cnt come cos kene g skola.
auntie: uhm.. u eh!
me: heeee.
auntie: ok u bilng norlia... ok takpe.. u just come la k til end of march
auntie: ok thnks auntie zara

shes nice afterall. hehh.

so tmr im going to go sch buy uni and then go clementi take my giftpack with fik. yeah. im so tired. i just found a nice editing software. kinda ah. ok many2 pics. and fik bought for my fam durians and we ate like what gitu kan. and fik kate "nanti family u kentot bau durian busuk!". ahaha.. my dad makan mcm nak abeskan 2 biji durian tu se. tmr makan durian lagi ngn fik kat daerah .. entah die nak ajak aku g mane. haha

2008-03-17T18:28:00.000+08:00

as you can see and i doubt ur blind, my blog is empty! yes, i deleted it ystd and did it again ystd night. its a new start and im not privating this blog. come read abt my life. ahhh. so tdy at werk...quite a number of ppl came for 1st day of werk.. they are having attachment at my office and those are all student from ite clementi, Business IT students. pathetic sey their pay.. 25 bux per day.. til my company see improvement den baru naik 50 per day.. tsk2. krjer kat chris better. toking bout tt, im starting to werk at chris' plc nx week. gee! so after khairul's dismissal, things are quite tough for me. i've been doing everything myself! auntie yati was kinda concern, wondering if i cud manage on my own. well, of kos i can =P. auntie faridah gave me more workloads for me to finish but yeah, i managed to finish it up on time. and auntie zahara was like asking me "radhyah, you going back to school eh?". hehe.. why eh.. u wan me to stay longer at the company kan.. hehe.. nola cos only i know what to do.. i mean.. only i know xactly how to do what khairul do.. and this thurs is my last day so, it kinda sucks right for them. im currently siting at khairul's plc. so messy, not organised. but yeah.. so, today was pretty past. time passed by so fast.. so dats bout it.

and yeah, fikri came ovr to my hse ystd and.. ok shall not say further. u noe i know my family know ok fikri what happened! mata bengkak siak aku! den cudnt sleep til2+ itu pn paksa. CONCLUSION : depression.

dh tido lmbt beh bgn kul 6+ am , tak ngntok.. pelik kan.. ok tapi benar.. dats me when im suffering from one. i dunoe la eh whats happening to my life.. losing pfrens, dun really mean so much but losing fikri means a hell much.. its like losing half my life. frens bynk.. bf satu.. smlm my dad said this to me and fik..

"kawan biar seribu.. sayang biar satu".

chet peewiiit my dad dh pandai nmpk! and he also said.

"sometimes it doesnt kills to say IM SORRY eventho u're not in the wrong "

wah smlm btol2 nye daddy kluakan bahasa2 bunga dier ahh. heheeeeeeee.

ok well, i bought myself perfume. nice n cheap

actuali i wanted to book the cable car ticks to dine in the cable car tpi fik cnfrm tanak.. dier penakot.. heee. ckp org aku pn same eh.. its cheap ah. k la im on the fone ngn fik nie so, toodles~